I always feel vulnerable posting these posts. But then again, I'm sure most of you feel these things, some just might not share...right?
I have been on a mission. You all know this. A mission to evolve into a better me, a more real, honest, unafraid me.
It will be a lifelong journey, I'm sure.
Personal growth is NECESSARY. It absolutely is.
I have been accepting that I am a very emotional creature. I am complex. I fall in love with anything and everything, I get passionate about SO MUCH.
I am not simple, not easy to figure out or classify. I am learning that this is a GOOD thing.
Sometimes my body just can't quite keep up with my ideas, sometimes my mind can't quite keep up with my heart.
So I am trying to read more books. Read more articles. Read less fluff. Listen to more songs. Find new music. Fall back in love with old favorites.
Let myself cry when I need to.
Stand up and be strong when I need to be more brave.
I am writing poetry again...and trying to find new poetry to read that speaks to me.
Oh and I hoop danced in front of a bunch of strangers at an art festival recently...not everyone was watching but I felt BRAVE.
What is next?? I want to push myself.
I still find myself comparing sometimes. So unhealthy.
This world is filled with people we are "supposed" to be like. It's exhausting.
I try to just remember that I am perfectly created. Imperfections and all.
I am working on being the best ME. Not anyone else. And not FOR anyone else.
I make lists constantly in my journals of things that I LOVE, things that are ME, things that make ME HAPPY...
Today my list includes:
13 dollar leopard shoes
Green tea frapuccinos
My pirate necklace from my sweet friend
Tonight, I will be eating Soy Dream butter pecan "fake" ice cream & watching cheesy TV.