Oh, life...
I always feel vulnerable posting these posts. But then again, I'm sure most of you feel these things, some just might not share...right?
I have been on a mission. You all know this. A mission to evolve into a better me, a more real, honest, unafraid me.
It will be a lifelong journey, I'm sure.
Personal growth is NECESSARY. It absolutely is.
I have been accepting that I am a very emotional creature. I am complex. I fall in love with anything and everything, I get passionate about SO MUCH.
I am not simple, not easy to figure out or classify. I am learning that this is a GOOD thing.
I overflow.
Sometimes my body just can't quite keep up with my ideas, sometimes my mind can't quite keep up with my heart.
So I am trying to read more books. Read more articles. Read less fluff. Listen to more songs. Find new music. Fall back in love with old favorites.
Let myself cry when I need to.
Stand up and be strong when I need to be more brave.
I am writing poetry again...and trying to find new poetry to read that speaks to me.
Oh and I hoop danced in front of a bunch of strangers at an art festival recently...not everyone was watching but I felt BRAVE.
What is next?? I want to push myself.
I still find myself comparing sometimes. So unhealthy.
This world is filled with people we are "supposed" to be like. It's exhausting.
I try to just remember that I am perfectly created. Imperfections and all.
I am working on being the best ME. Not anyone else. And not FOR anyone else.
I make lists constantly in my journals of things that I LOVE, things that are ME, things that make ME HAPPY...
Today my list includes:
13 dollar leopard shoes
Green tea frapuccinos
My pirate necklace from my sweet friend
Tonight, I will be eating Soy Dream butter pecan "fake" ice cream & watching cheesy TV.
Perfect? Yes.
:)
xo, Jamie
I love brave posts keep being brave :)
ReplyDeletei'm so proud of you jamie girl! :) that was brave to hula hoop at the arts festival. i remember you mentioning anxiety, so i know that took a lot of courage. stay strong with love.
ReplyDeleteThis is truly a Beautiful Post J!!! Yes personal growth is so needed. If we're not growing we are not learning from our mistakes or good moves therefore we are not evolving. As I turn 30 at the end of the year, and have kept a journal & poems since I was 12. I look back & sometimes see how much time I've wasted being too hard on myself, as well as my body for not being perfect. It is what it'll be, & we are who we are, & living ourselves flaws & all is way more attractive. So evolve. Make lists. Follow your dreams, & keep up with your writing. Truly an Inspiring Wonan. Here's my blog too if you ever get a chance to look at. ;) http: / / missbrooke-selfloveinalatte.blogspot.com /
ReplyDeleteI meant "loving" ourselves ;)
Deletegood for you, jamie! keep being brave. :)
ReplyDeletei often find myself comparing as well. and like you said, it isn't healthy. this was a very inspiring post!
I really love this post. I am here. Rediscovering...attempting to refresh myself. You are right. It is a life long journey. Thanks for sharing your bits and pieces of it!
ReplyDeleteThis is such a great post.
ReplyDeleteAnd you know what.. GO YOU!
It makes me so happy to read all of this. Self-betterment is such a needed aspect in life. Stagnation is a killer.
I am glad to hear that you are writing poetry again.
Your posts are always so inspiring.
I just love you Jamie and your sweet hear! This is a great post! And hooping in front of strangers? Go you! I'm afraid to take pictures in front of people sometimes, but why? I love it! Here's to being brave and doing what we adore!
ReplyDeletexo,
Amy
:)